I feel so conflicted, why should I keep you? You’re causing me so much, is it even worth it now? No if I’m going through this much then it must be worth it right? I will not try to stop my thinking; I will let it stop on its own. When something comes into my mind I will let it come in and let it go out, because it won’t stay for long. When you try to stop your thinking it means you are bothered by it. I must not be bothered by anything. These feelings of mine are the waves of my mind; if I’m not bothered by the waves gradually they will become calmer and calmer.
I feel at peace now. Like a breath of air in my stagnant mind. I open my eyes to see a bond hurt and weak. I’m sorry, I’m really sorry! I see what I must do now, I will calmly back away and let the bond heal, and when I return to you I will be smile at you with grace and humility.
I want to see you, I want to hear you, but now I must fit you with all the average ones. That is where you must stay for now, in our uncertain future maybe we can be more one day. I’d like that, but let us remain now. I want to see a future with you and all the others with me, whether it is in person or spirit.